[Verse 1] I'm not crazy I'm just a little overwhelmed I know, right now, you can't tell but stay a while bitch then you will see the gangster side of me [Chorus 1] no I ain't all that I claimed to be I was sober, but now I ain't clean lately it's a battle between death and me I can tell you who might win it this time might be different so stay with me bitch then maybe you would see me, how i ain't a friend of me [Verse 2] naw I am someone that has disorders never kept my life in fucking order I struggle to this day, never seem to find my way still always broke, down, actin a clown cause it's what I was used to being now I'm grown, I'm old, I ain't push no 23 I admit it, I've been lit, drugs since 17 completed that treatment this year got put the first day and had me a beer I knew it would fucking happen to me so I called my dude he came with a couple of Gs we were lit like lynard skynyrd 5 days never ate dinner I stayed up all them days and craved that fucking methamphetamine [Chorus 2] so he lost the touch, got right back on drugs for the longest he ever went clean on his own destroyed his fuckin life now I'm crying why God why fuck it let's just die